Month: April 2019

Why has always been a word that comes very quickly to mind, even if I don’t speak it. I like to tell myself that it is natural curiosity, the researcher in me, the wanna-be scientist buried deep inside of me, the former journalist looking for truth…

Yeah. Okay. Or maybe, just maybe it is the rebellious child who is frightened, or discouraged, or leery of something that is about to happen that she really, really, doesn’t want to be a part of. Maybe you’ve been there, that point when the question becomes an emotional But Why? instead of just Why?scream-1819736_1920

I did a quick look on a Bible search site and found that in the whole Bible (ESV) just the word Why is noted 432 times. I was surprised. I thought the use of the word would be more frequent. I discovered that some 289 times it can be found in the Old Testament; 143 in the New Testament. On reading through some of the cited verses,  I clearly could see my own various attitudes when it came to asking Why?

So now, the question is, why But Why? Something had to lead up to this blog post, right? Yeah. Because sometimes it goes far beyond those things we want to understand in order to control. We see world-wide that people are dying violent deaths, and people are being diagnosed with terminal diseases. We see and know of people who look into what used to be their well-stocked pantries and now are seeing just empty shelves; if they still have a home that once had a pantry.  As the rain comes down, and the flash flooding is threatening, worried eyes are on the rivers in the Midwest, wondering when they will flood again. We discover yet another job application has been denied, leaving more weeks ahead with no money coming in, or we ache with the knowledge that our children are twisted up in a dangerous world where truth and lies are confused and intertwined.

I’m sure everyone has lifted frustrated hands, frustrated eyes skyward and muttered, screamed, or just silently voiced But Why? Even those who don’t believe an answer is there. Even those who don’t believe that there is anyone who hears and cares.

But God hears, in whatever form you ask.  He not only hears, He listens to the depth of emotion behind the But Why?  Not because He needs to hear it to know, He knows everything already, but because sometimes we are so bottled up with emotion we need to express it to find release.  He understands, and in the process of us asking our questions, He desires that we are able to come to recognize just how much He does care. No, we don’t always get a direct answer.  Sometimes when we do get an answer it isn’t one we like. But, as believers, if we trust in His Sovereignty, understand that His plan is solid, sure, and for our ultimate good, then we can accept that we don’t always have to understand. That as long as we trust Him, and the more we understand who He is, the less we’ll find ourselves asking But Why? 

More and more I am finding this true in my life. Sometimes I just sigh, admit I just don’t get it, affirm my trust in Him, and go on. Sometimes it takes much more than a sigh. Especially when it comes to the hard, hurtful things. Still, I believe that whatever happens here and now on this Earth is temporary.  A place to learn and grow and finally, when the time is right, to be with Him. Forever. Forever in a new world, where there is peace and order and righteousness.

Why do I believe that?  Because He said so and by faith, I believe. In the years I’ve studied the Bible I have come to understand and rejoice in the reality that this inspired Word of God is full of history, testimonies, and promises of the Kingdom of God, both here and to come, that will guide us through whatever meets us head-on. I know there will always be a But Why? when the child in me rises. But, like a child, I can ultimately look at the Father and know His love and accept His direction because He is much wiser than I could ever hope to be, and I am confident He has my best at heart.

That doesn’t mean the pain in the world ceases to impact me. The Christian life was promised trial and tribulation, but it is a life that can be lived in His peace. The impact of the pain and distress I see on a daily basis draws me nearer to my Lord to pray for what I see, what I hear, what I know to be horrific burdens some people carry. What I also know is that some people who have walked through some of those terrible times in their lives are the very people used by God to minister to others.

There is a plan. Not only do I want to believe it, but I have to believe it. Especially on those days when my human frailty calls out But Why?


Next blog: Time to go.










Sunday – Worship in Word and Music

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. – Psalm 19:14

But the hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship him. – John 4:23

and all the Levitical singers, Asaph, Heman, and Jeduthun, their sons and kinsmen, arrayed in fine linen, with cymbals, harps, and lyres, stood east of the altar with 120 priests who were trumpeters; and it was the duty of the trumpeters and singers to make themselves heard in unison in praise and thanksgiving to the Lord), and when the song was raised, with trumpets and cymbals and other musical instruments, in praise to the Lord,
“For he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever,”
the house, the house of the Lord, was filled with a cloud, so that the priests could not stand to minister because of the cloud, for the glory of the Lord filled the house of God. – 2 Chronicles 5:12-14


DappyTKeys Piano Worship – Published on May 29, 2017 – Alone With GOD 3 Hour Piano Peaceful & Relaxing Piano Instrumental Music for Prayer, Worship, Meditation, Deep Healing, Study, Rest, Stress Relief, Refreshing, Deep Sleep & Relaxation. May the peace of God which surpasses all understanding guard your heart and mind as you listen. Amen!

Saturday -Yep, another quiz

From YouTube by Khristiya Jhund Published on Nov 3, 2017



We all have weeks where schedules seem to fight to be broken. Such has been my week. The time for Thursday’s blog post time has come and gone, so we’ll massage our forehead, sigh, and get on with Friday’s schedule, which doesn’t include blogs, and next week the blog ‘but why?’ will be posted on Tuesday.


When the worst that could happen, happens. When the worst eventually turns out to be far from the worst, and the emotions have run their course and you are faced with a reality you just don’t know what do to with, then what?

Maybe the disciples had this question raging in the back of their minds as they tried to settle into the reality of the events they’d just gone through. Jesus was here. Then He wasn’t. Then He was. Now it looks like He’ll be gone again.

choice-2692575_1920How many of us face life-changing events and end up feeling like we’re staring into the future feeling lost as to what comes next.

God has a plan. He always has a plan. We study scripture so we can understand His plan. If we believe God we follow the plan. But still, what will happen next? Even if all goes according to the plan, what is next? There always will be a ‘what is next’ thought that creeps, or leaps, into the mind. And the mournful ‘where do I go from here?’ is never far behind.

Instead of trusting God and His direction, sometimes we get impatient with God’s timing, which leads to doubt, which makes us think we have to figure things out with the limited information we possess, and then fix things that don’t need to be fixed; things that just need some time to work themselves out as proof that God really does know what He’s doing, whether we do or not.

Being prepared for what lies ahead is not a bad plan. God expects us to use the brains and the resources He gave us. He also gave us emotions to enrich our lives and He understands how powerful they can be, even dangerous if left uncontrolled. But faith is not based on emotion. If it were, how easy it would be to walk away from our faith after one or several difficult days left us in a foul mood. Or an amazingly good day or days enticed us away, promising endless similar days that fit what we decide is an easier plan.

When we want to moan, ‘where do I go from here?’  can the answer be so simple as to follow God? Follow the instruction of His Holy Scriptures? Follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit?  Peace is available in the process if we can follow Him without demanding our own way.  Simple? No, the process is not always simple. No snapping of the fingers, or twitching of the nose. It takes effort to maintain a relationship with God, just as it does with people. It means establishing priorities that demand some things,  some people, have to be placed further down on the priority list or, perhaps, even go entirely. That part is not easy. Worth it? To establish more firmly our relationship with God, yes! So, where do we go from here? Forward, toward God, one step at a time.

Through your precepts I get understanding; therefore I hate every false way. Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. I have sworn an oath and confirmed it, to keep your righteous rules. – Psalm 119:104-106

Next blog: But why?

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He Is Risen

…the angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you seek Jesus who was crucified. He is not here, for he has risen, as he said. Come, see the place where he lay. Matthew 28:5-6


Published on Feb 8, 2017


Saturday Smiles: Trivia


Shared from YouTube – trivia from  RH3MA RHEMA

Premiered Dec 18, 2018